My kids, my joy. The Camino de Santiago allowed me to reconnect with my kids, I thought I lost a long time ago in my divorce. 50/50 custody and a contentious divorce did that to me.
Where am I now? I have tried for years to be okay with myself. I have explained, apologized and shut up to be liked in this world. During my marriage I was convinced there was something greatly wrong with me, believing that's why I was unhappily married. I bought self help book after self help book only never finding a solution to my unhappiness, my emotional sensitivities and to fitting in. I felt alone in a crowded room for as long as I can remember. After 20 years on Antidepressants, that may have took the edge off my emotional pain but never solved the problem, I have weaned off. Its a new century and hopefully I will find that solution. I want peace in my brain.
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